p s e u d o r e a l

Better Than Real Because It's Not.


Thursday January 21st 2016, 11:49 pm
Filed under: General

(Jan 15) I feel like I am returning to the past, except it’s a good thing to feel the energy of a Internet bubble. Just like 1999. And just like 1999 there may be trouble just around the bend. It remains to be seen how much exposure I have to the bubble bursting. Last time I was pretty much unaffected. (I Wish I could say the same about the Great Recession.)

problem dog that he is
I worry I might not be able to take him with me

which perhaps is why it's a problem, quite a lot of time has in fact, passed
I remember this, like it was just a few years ago.

really, i don't
I don’t even remember this boy

this guy, i remember, very well
The past is past. But it makes me who I am today.

i will always miss him
Atlas now is the same age as Billy was in this photo from 1998.


Sunday November 22nd 2015, 5:10 pm
Filed under: General

(Nov 7) November is significant in pseudoreal because it is the month I moved to Brooklyn, it is the month I left Brooklyn, and it was the time of the end for Billy. I have still not returned. I will not return in November 2015. But I will return. In 2016. I can feel it.

thanks, cloud
How could this be an 8 hour job, right?

I should have cropped this, right?
For some reason this scene reminded me of this.

this is a little over the top though
I expected to get bit, involving myself in a dog/cat attack.

no margin of error
The things I do to keep a stinky dog alive.

it's time for crème brûlée
I bought a mini-torch. This can only mean one thing.


Tuesday June 09th 2015, 1:26 am
Filed under: General

(May 16) Now that Junior and Kevin are gone, it’s quiet here. (and the house is a lot less messy) For how long?

billy level attached
He’s getting pretty attached to me.

but this little boy had some bad breaks
I didn’t want another dog

he looks like the dog strangers think they see when they look at him
Speaking of another dog… I love how Romeo looks when he runs.

sure looks scary here
He’s so gentle and mellow, he lets other dogs stick their heads in his food bowl while he’s eating.

i am trapped in the darkness
Meanwhile…

never reaching the other side
Back and forth along the curve,


Wednesday May 27th 2015, 12:22 pm
Filed under: General

(May 15) I’ve gone to the dogs.

he's started using my chest as a pillow at night
I think we’ve reached the point where I can’t leave him behind

just like billy used to do
He’s taken to following me around

my little boy
It would be wrong to leave him, especially here.

pete always chooses the easy thing over the right thing
To be honest, I don’t trust Pete to do right by Romeo either.


Tuesday July 22nd 2014, 1:18 am
Filed under: General

(Jun 10) They spend a lot of time in my bed.

everyone who sees my bed for the first time thinks 'fake billy' is real
And sleeping is their #1 pastime.